I've neglected to update my blog this week because I've been even more lost in thought than usual. At the forefront of my mind has been the question, what is the life lesson that has had the biggest impact on me over the past couple of years?? I’ve determined it’s the discovery that I need to be more of what I considered to be selfish in the past. Now I realize it’s less selfish and more the implementation of personal boundaries.
I’m a people pleaser. I’ve admitted this to myself and now it’s time to create some balance within that trait. There’s nothing wrong with me wanting to say or do something that may make somebody’s day, the problem comes in when I do it at the expense of my own happiness.
Sounds crazy to admit I’ll consistently neglect my own comfort to ensure the comfort of others, but my habit I wrote about in Ownership of trying to fix peoples’ problems ties into this. And it all has to change.
So, I’m working on implementing boundaries. To be more selfish by denying people more. Not to say “no” for the sake of saying it, but to be comfortable with knowing saying it does not make me selfish. And knowing, when applied correctly, saying “no” will result in a peace within myself. I’m almost 100 percent positive the calm I’ll receive from using my boundaries wisely will heighten the happiness I receive from bringing others joy because it will make my actions that much more meaningful.
This was not a lesson learned easily or painlessly. I don’t want to be in the position I’m in now - being 30 and just starting to implement boundaries - but I definitely wouldn’t want to be in the position I was about three years ago before I learned this lesson.
Life is about growth. Evolution. Without that, what’s the point??